Monday, February 9, 2009

The Book of Mormon- 1 AM Musings

So I guess if I am going out to evangelize the world about a "golden bible" , I should probably formulate my testimony on the Book of Mormon. Once considered a stumbling block for my testimony, I now consider the Book of Mormon to be the keystone of my religion, my faith.

The power of the Book of Mormon is very hard to express. I think if we harden our hearts, we miss out on this book. I remember during my doubt period, I ignored the Book of Mormon, cast it aside, seeing it as a non-Christian, uninspired text. As I came to study more closely, however, I realize that it is the text that I was searching for during my religious experience.

I wanted a Savior who felt the pains of dealing with the problems I had as a 14 year old boy. I wanted a Savior who would let me feel the wounds in His hands and weep at His feet. I want a Savior who would heal me of my afflictions. I wanted a Savior who would hold me, embrace me, love me no matter what. In the Book of Mormon, I found this Savior. After years of searching, refusing to embrace the Gospel, I found Him. And what exquisite joy I felt. The Book of Mormon contains a Christ who bore my sorrows and one who would help me.

I like the Book of Mormon's discussion of the atonement. My testimony has always been strong of the reality of Jesus Christ as the Son of the Living God. My testimony of the atonement is strong. Christ carried our sorrows and our pains along with our sins. I also imagine that the atonement also included a fullness of our joy. Christ knows both sides. This way He can be with us always. I need the atonement so badly. I don't think I can express that enough. I am a sinner. I make a lot of mistakes. I am not perfect. I try so hard, but often I make mistakes. I have temptations. I have the follies of my youth. I have problems. But through the atonement, I am happier. I have come to realize that as I believe Christ, I obtain a fullness of joy. And this testimony has come through the Book of Mormon.

I am eager to share the Book of Mormon. It has such theology. I have a testimony of its divine nature. I pray I can share this witness that I have receieved.


Michelle said...

You are so well prepared for your mission-- I can't wait to see where you will go!

veronica said...

Yes, Jacob, this is great. Tell me when you get your call!!

Catherine Agnes said...

Counting down the last 24 hours (hopefully) until we all get to hear where in the world you will be sharing your love for the scriptures for the next two years. :-)