Jacob's Concern

I am concerned. I won't mention why. All is well with me, I am just seeing some things here at BYU that concern me a bit. I still love it, but I am growing increasingly concerned.

Here's my list of things that I did today:

Got up at noon, SarahJane talking on phone, cereal, talking with Rachel Mize and Carly, depressing movie, homework, thinking about things in general, etc, etc. It was a rather boring day I will not lie. I have so much to do tomorrow and yet I will not sleep for hours.

Come Thou Font

Here's a list of today's activities: Book of Mormon, paper visiting with Virginia, Honors 292R, Heidi-Jacob bonding moments, lunch, civ, giggling, laughter, "sexy" from Prof Griggs, blushing, piano, recital realization announcement, purple platypus sighting near my favorite building at BYU, Honors course kickoff, Parish and Bible Class, LSH friends that I have longed to see again,Welsh with food and complex grammar, Heidi's friend, hiding at the MOA, SarahJane, missionary tag, laughing my guts out, speed walking, bruising myself at the HFAC, eating, laundry, thinking about sleeping.

So I recently rediscovered this thing I was obsessed with my Senior year after my seminary teacher showed it to us in class. Here's the link.
http://mabrystudios.typepad.com/reflections_of_christ

The reason I love this version of the song so much is because of the feeling the pictures give me in combination with the song. One of my favorite ones is the women with Christ as He is on the ground. The other one is Christ anointing the eyes of the blind man. I think that often in my life, I long for that healing that only Jesus Christ can bring. And somehow I think I have finally found that.

When I first came to BYU, I felt a little more than intimidated. I was downright terrified. I didn't know if I was supposed to come to BYU. In fact, I didn't know what I was really supposed to do about anything. But now that I am here, I have seen how Jesus Christ has healed me in a way unimaginable before now. Despite the few lingering problems that I have with my ward, I am happy. I am happy. I am happy.

And that's the best news I have.

No Better Title but "Laziness Abounding"

Today was a lazy lazy day in many ways. I enjoy those days but I feel so unproductive in reality. I didn't quite know what to do with myself today. I did not feel too hot for most of the day but I pressed forward anyway.

I got up and put in the roast after SarahJane texted me to remind me about it. Then I went to Mission Prep, came home and then looked up my reservations for the Eyring Pendulum court. Chantelle and I went to Pendelum Court for lunch today it was delicious. Then I had Spanish. I got an 89 on the test. I was pretty pleased, but I really want to study a lot to be able to get at least a 90 on the next one.

I visited Rachel Mize after she texted me and I went to see her newly cleaned apt. They were doing homework. After that I came home and fed SarahJane. We had a good time, as usual.

And now I am finishing up some last minute homework while my room is loud with the sounds of girls and the RA.

Where Art Thou?

As many of you know, whoever may read my blog, I love the song "My Kindness Shall Not Depart From Thee". Lately I have continually pondered upon that song. It tells me that God is near. Always. No matter what. I don't know why I continually focus on this song. It has made an impression upon my heart.

Here's my list of my activities today: Wake up, Book of Mormon, Lunch with Rachel and Dani, Forum on TV, planning my schedule, thinking about my schedule, guilt for not practicing the piano, Welsh mid term -.5 points, frosted flakes, writing lab on general conference, pizza with Rachel, talking, Spencer's family, Rachel's family, texting Holly from SLC, pensiveness, Elder Holland ASL, ASL thoughts, winter course kick off prep, thinking about major fair, praying for strength, strength is not something you have its something you find, angels, love, confusion, sleep, friends, wishing, civilization paper, thinking about other homework I should do.

Why I Believe

There are very few constants in this world. It seems like the world around me is changing so quickly. I really like to have some consistency in my life at times. But it seems so lacking always. I search for it in my life.

So why do I believe? Why do I follow? I think that the main reason I do is because I know that God loves me. It took me a long time to figure that out. For quite a while I did not really felt that God knew me. And now that I do know He knows me, I try to follow His commandments. I am praying to follow more closely. But be it known unto all, that I do not follow the teachings of the Church by blind obedience. I never have and never will. We may walk by faith, but I study things out in my mind and in my heart. Through Mormonism, I see how God knows me. I see how He loves me. I see how He will help me in all that I do.

And that's good news.

I Get Frustrated

Doubt and faith are not opposites. Doubt leads to faith. And doubt leads to action. I know this.

Today at BYU I felt some frustration. There are certain things that I cannot deal with at BYU. I love BYU deeply but I am feeling a bit of frustration and anger about certain things. Of course this is not the outlet to share them all, but I will say that there are certain aspects of BYU that I dislike. But I will remember what Cherie Call says "When you need a shoulder, bow your head and pray." Christ will do that for me- He will become my shoulder.

Church, hall meeting, curry, thoughts, Catherine, Margo, SarahJane, RM, RMo, food, cinnamon challenge, saltine challenge, almond cookies, FHE daughter quality time, roommate bonding at brownie night, tunnel signing, talking, SarahJane and I BFF, etc.

Creamery Adventures at 10:30 11:00ish

So today was one of the laziest days ever. Here's a list of what I did. Woke up at 11:30ish, followed by a good dose of lazing about, tried to take a nap in RMO's house, took it easy some more, baked a cake for Geoff's birthday, watched Hercules, went to the Creamery to see Margo and Harriet, ate at the Creamery, did a bit of shopping, hung out with everyone at the apartment, tried to watch Mansfield Park, talked to Mother on the phone for a bit, and then played pit and made our way to the Creamery for our Creamery adventures.

I got Rachel some hot chocolate and I bought some Sangría. I love that stuff far too much if you ask me. I am obsessed with it actually. I enjoyed our little adventure to the Creamery. I was really cold in my cougar crocs and my short sleeve t-shirt, but I managed. I am so tired right now so I should probably sleep. That would be a wise idea. Tomorrow, I hope to blog more about some things that have been on my mind.