Monday, March 30, 2009


So like I mentioned in my post with the Thai song, I have been pondering why the petty things hurt the most. Recently I got very upset about something that is seemingly so petty. I think the real reason I got upset though is the fact that it represents something has changed in my relationship with this particular friend. When I found out about this petty thing, all I could do was twiddle my thumbs and think about the fireside that I had later that night.

It hurt. A lot. Then again, life is very painful at times. To feel left out of something is a part of the human experience. To be left alone is also another part of the human experience. I guess I just have to learn that not everything works out the way we had hoped.

I think BYU, while it can be very fun and I will probably stay here, has exacerbated my pain at times. I feel so out of place sometimes as I fail to understand others motivations or other people's reactions to the religious beliefs of others. I find it to be an odd dynamic that I am still trying to figure out.

Though, I have a question for BYU alumnus who may be reading this blog: Why should I stay at BYU?


daine said...

It's cheap.

BYU sucks on many levels, but it has a lot of advantages if you're willing to seek them out. If you can manage to put up with the bull that goes down there without it sullying your testimony of the Church or humanity in general, you can get a high-quality university education for the cost of a community college.

oneup said... in either the FLSR or Alta. Everywhere else is crummy from what I've seen. And only stay if God tells you to. That's what kept me there...

alea said...

You should stay at BYU because it's an experience. Seriously, where else in the universe could you get such a high quotient of insanity?

Though, more importantly, BYU's hard and hard things are good, right? I see it like this: if you intend to stay in the Church, you've got to learn how to deal with being reviled by Mormons (unless, of course, you're going to start toeing the Kingdom line). BYU's the best environment to do that in.

But, I'm with oneup. Pray about it. God'll tell you what he wants.