Today I woke up and went to Book of Mormon. RM was sick, I felt so bad for her. She missed our Book of Mormon lesson on mercy and justice. That's the topic of her research paper. I know she would have loved it.
Today I read the scriptures in the Maesar building. I am trudging along trying to finish the Bible before the end of the year. I am getting a bit bogged down in the New Testament. Not what one would expect to hear I guess right? The Old Testament felt like a breeze. I love the Old Testament. It truly testifies of Jesus Christ and His holy mission. But I also love the New Testament so I don't know why I am getting bogged down. Possibly the amount of reading I have to do for my Book of Mormon class. I have to admit I have never actually read the BOM by myself. That's always a bit of a sore spot for me here at BYU. I always feel bad that I never really had personal daily scripture study until this year. I feel so spiritually feeble at times. But I am learning to do better. I am trying harder to understand.
292R was curious today. I didn't like it to be entirely honest. It was great until the fight between the prof and the students began. Prof Sowell warned us though. So I guess we should have expected just as much.
I also had polio today while at SarahJane's. Her roommate Casey wanted to get out of a date and I suggested polio. She didn't buy it. When I left to avoid breaking the H code, I had polio. There were noises involved.
And now I must sleep. Earlier than usual I believe.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Too Tired and Theophany Envy
I must sleep tonight. I feel weary and I am about to do something that I never thought I would do here at BYU. But I think it will be fun. I hope it will be? I am trying to think of how I should do it. Let's hope I get some sort of idea.
I took my Spanish test today. Not too bad. Could have been better, could have been worse. I love Spanish though. I feel like I should major in it. But again, it comes back to the idea of God's plan for me. Sometimes I wish I could have a theophany. Not necessarily anything too grand. The facts are simple: I know God lives but I long to know Him better than I know Him now. I know I can do it through His mighty power. It is just a matter of patience.
God knows us. God gives us strengths and weaknesses for a very distinct purpose. Often in my internal theological debates, I wonder. I wonder a lot. As in the play Doubt, I have such doubt. But doubt is a catalyst to faith. Faith is a principle of action and action leads to knowledge. One of my weaknesses has been on my mind lately. I have been praying for divine help to help me understand it and cherish every moment. I know God will help me. He has in the past. And that's good news.
I took my Spanish test today. Not too bad. Could have been better, could have been worse. I love Spanish though. I feel like I should major in it. But again, it comes back to the idea of God's plan for me. Sometimes I wish I could have a theophany. Not necessarily anything too grand. The facts are simple: I know God lives but I long to know Him better than I know Him now. I know I can do it through His mighty power. It is just a matter of patience.
God knows us. God gives us strengths and weaknesses for a very distinct purpose. Often in my internal theological debates, I wonder. I wonder a lot. As in the play Doubt, I have such doubt. But doubt is a catalyst to faith. Faith is a principle of action and action leads to knowledge. One of my weaknesses has been on my mind lately. I have been praying for divine help to help me understand it and cherish every moment. I know God will help me. He has in the past. And that's good news.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
No Homework? Okay!
I can't believe I did not do any homework, with the exception of reading, today. I got up thinking I would. In fact I went to Book of Mormon, came back and read Oedipus and thought I had gotten a good start on homework. Things digressed from there. I ended up being social and enjoying my time here at BYU.
So tonight I have to do a bit more studying before I lay myself down to sleep. I hope I am actually able to do it. Some other highlights of today include: cell phone cakes, watching ultimate Frisbee in the cold Provo outdoors, smiles, friends, talking, bookstore visits, Welsh quiz, time flying by, and pensive thoughts about my future. I am wondering about God's plan for me. I wish I knew it.
So tonight I have to do a bit more studying before I lay myself down to sleep. I hope I am actually able to do it. Some other highlights of today include: cell phone cakes, watching ultimate Frisbee in the cold Provo outdoors, smiles, friends, talking, bookstore visits, Welsh quiz, time flying by, and pensive thoughts about my future. I am wondering about God's plan for me. I wish I knew it.
Gratitude
Today was a good day here's a list of the low down. Honors 150, Mission Prep, Lunch at MOA, SarahJane and I baking, mad dash to finish Honors 292R paper, FHE, makeshift dinner, talks with RM and SP, scriptures I hope, and sleep I pray.
Today I feel more grateful than I usual do. Perhaps it is something in the air, or the time of year that approaches us but I feel inclined to give thanks more than usual. I am grateful to be at BYU. God sent me here for a very distinct purpose and I don't quite know what it is but I know I will try to learn from it. God has plans for all of us that I can't begin to understand but I know I am grateful for them. Through His help, I can do all things. I know I can.
Today I feel more grateful than I usual do. Perhaps it is something in the air, or the time of year that approaches us but I feel inclined to give thanks more than usual. I am grateful to be at BYU. God sent me here for a very distinct purpose and I don't quite know what it is but I know I will try to learn from it. God has plans for all of us that I can't begin to understand but I know I am grateful for them. Through His help, I can do all things. I know I can.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
And I Be Provo Bound Again
I love Provo in many ways. Coming back here to the lovely city where I have met so many friends finally was a wonderful experience. I think I will enjoy my time at BYU. I have decided to make the best of my experience here and try to focus on the positive aspects of BYU.
Conference was quite amazing. I was surprised by the lack of mention of SSM. The messages were all wonderful and I enjoyed every minute of it. In many ways I can't believe that I am actually saying that. If I were where I was even two years ago, I would not have said that. But now I have come to appreciate my faith for what it is: The Truth. Jesus Christ was a central focus this conference, more so than usual even. And one of the greatest lessons I learned was that Jesus is the Truth, Light, and the Way. I cherish his sacrifice.
As for now, I must sleep and try to stay focused.
Conference was quite amazing. I was surprised by the lack of mention of SSM. The messages were all wonderful and I enjoyed every minute of it. In many ways I can't believe that I am actually saying that. If I were where I was even two years ago, I would not have said that. But now I have come to appreciate my faith for what it is: The Truth. Jesus Christ was a central focus this conference, more so than usual even. And one of the greatest lessons I learned was that Jesus is the Truth, Light, and the Way. I cherish his sacrifice.
As for now, I must sleep and try to stay focused.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Today Flew By
Thursdays are hard for me. I can't quite decide how I feel about them to be entirely honest. The day starts off at 9 with Book of Mormon then Honors 292R at 11:00, Civ at 1:35, Piano Lesson at 3:00 and Welsh at 4. I get home at 5:10ish. It is a long day to say the least. I am wondering if I will make my days this jam packed next semester.
Piano was great, I love my teacher. Everything else was pretty good but I felt a bit odd this morning. I don't know that I am getting adequate nutrition if you ask me. It will be nice to go back to SLC to get some real food again.
But the morning comes early so, here's to bed!
Piano was great, I love my teacher. Everything else was pretty good but I felt a bit odd this morning. I don't know that I am getting adequate nutrition if you ask me. It will be nice to go back to SLC to get some real food again.
But the morning comes early so, here's to bed!
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Personal Narratives
Perhaps the highlight of my day was when I got my personal narrative back. I didn't really know what to expect when Andrea handed them back. To my pleasant surprise, I opened it up and discovered that I only missed two points. A 148/150! I was very happy. She prefaced handing them back and said they were the best batch she had ever had. She sounded genuine. That is a very happy thought.
So I got to wondering, why were they so good? Our generation has so many problems, but it seems like we also have such strength. It seems to me that here at BYU what it boils down to is our ability to interpret life as something less than ideal. I was brutally honest in my paper. I told of my search for religious peace among a turmoil of emotions. Everyone that I know here at BYU has such diverse backgrounds, so many different lives, and countless stories to tell. The mundane becomes the profound as we strive to understand the incomprehensible.
I do not claim to understand much of anything, but I know that in my own life certain things have changed me forever. From my personal sorrows to the exquisite joys, I am trying to find myself. I will keep searching.
The rest of my day was good. Spanish was amazing. I really am considering doing a Spanish major.
So I got to wondering, why were they so good? Our generation has so many problems, but it seems like we also have such strength. It seems to me that here at BYU what it boils down to is our ability to interpret life as something less than ideal. I was brutally honest in my paper. I told of my search for religious peace among a turmoil of emotions. Everyone that I know here at BYU has such diverse backgrounds, so many different lives, and countless stories to tell. The mundane becomes the profound as we strive to understand the incomprehensible.
I do not claim to understand much of anything, but I know that in my own life certain things have changed me forever. From my personal sorrows to the exquisite joys, I am trying to find myself. I will keep searching.
The rest of my day was good. Spanish was amazing. I really am considering doing a Spanish major.
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